Looking Back

Well ladies, we've been out for 4 days. When is it going to end? Unreal, I have not seen either of you. Thanks for that post P. It's always good to hear stuff like that in times like these. I think we've all needed this break but at the same time we all need the education we're missing out on. I have no doubt in my mind that we are all growing up way to fast. I remember back in grade 1 when I met Shit and Orianna. We went through elementry school, met P on the way but our "groups" never stayed the same. We went on to middle school, made new friendships and broke old ones. Those 3 years have many memories that I wish I could erase. The childish backstabbing, and those times when you really see who your true friends are. Who would have known it'd turn out like this. If you asked me back in grade 6 or 7, I would have thought differently. We made our way through grade nine where the drama continued. By grade 10 we all seemed to find our place, leaving the pre-teen years behind. When we first started at Fox, it seemed like 4 years would be a long time. Now we look back and wonder where the times gone. Personally, I wish I could go back to at least grade 11 and start over. That's where it all started to mean something, and where I started to not care. I'm paying for it this year. Things have not turned out how I thought they would. It seems like everything, school, family...everything has gone in the opposite direction I thought it would. I can only hope it's for the best. I remember counting down the days until' I could go and get my L, I knew years in advanced that I would be able to go right on my brithday. A month tomorrow, I'll be working on getting my N. The year with my L took no time. All I can do is ask myself, where has the time gone? Time seems to fly by, but with it comes an endless amout of changes. You don't realize everything you've been through in the past month until you look back. A month and a half down...less then 8 months to go. Make it good, have no regrets.